This past week as I was dealing with an illness, I had time to contemplate my life. That may sound as being a little dramatic,but what can I say I am a woman. (-; All joking aside I had several thoughts go through my mind, some good and some not so good.
I have been participating in a bible study of Proverbs 31 and what it means to be a biblical wife and mother (www.goodmorninggirls.org), since I was unable to get out of my bed this past week I felt just awe full for not being able to clean and cook for my husband and daughter I was feeling sorry for myself. My wonderful husband even came home from work early to help me out. Which made my pity party worse, I was even thinking that they would be better off with out me. I also started to feel that I was a horrible mother and wife. See not only was I sick this past week, I was also in a car accident on April 4th. I am still dealing with some of the aftermath of my accident like a sprained knee and cracked ribs, which you guessed it made it even worse. Finally I just began to pray, I told God that I knew he didn't want me to think this way, and I hated feeling this way. I also prayed that I could just start feeling better, that I was tired of being sick or injured. Then something great happened I not only started feeling better I started thinking better. God not only spoke to me to share my story but that he does have great things in store for me.
He first sent my nine year old daughter Marisol into my room to tell me how happy she was that I was her mommy and that I was the best mommy ever. He then sent my husband Kenneth in to yell at me to stop talking and thinking about how they would be better off without me. Finally, he sent my Girls of God ladies to post their thoughts and struggles in our online group. I started reading about the same things I was thinking and feeling from these wonderful ladies. I also read the other women lifting them up in prayer and encouraging each and everyone of them. I then realized two things: 1) I am not the only one thinking and feeling these things and 2) God places people into your life to help you when you need it, as long as you seek them as you seek him!
-Gloria 
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